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The Fun & The Lonely

by Civil War Rust

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We're waiting for the bomb to drop and blow us all to hell. Hesitation. Procrastination. A lonely road to complete annihilation of all of this. Now my heart is racing my thoughts to an empty seat at the bar. Close my tab and walk away. If we can't communicate Then we're destined to this life of pain. Our ignorance will do us in. I saw a face that I hadn't seen in years Walk by and quickly disappear. Leaving me a wreck. Snapped my head back for a second glance But the silhouette had already passed. Was it even real?
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I'm broke and hungry but I wouldn't say that I'm starving. I'm down but I'm far from out. Tomorrow I'll be back with my head in the clouds. Walking down Ward with my head held high. Passing by the bums with a nod and a smile. Living in the heart of this vibrant river town. I've got nothing left but a shit Eating smile and one last wish. I'm in the back seat Counting all the dogs that I see. Truck stops and caffeine pills, I gotta get myself to the California line. It rained all day so we drank all night. The cops showed up so we put out the light. Tuscon Arizona... I've got nothing left. I'm fine being left alone. I had it all and watched it slip, Pick up broken pieces walking down the road. I've got nothing left. This is all I've got left. A shit eating smile and a last wish.
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Mayday 03:14
The shit behind my back Has been spread around like wild fire. And I won't be coming back. I've got 10 new ways to sell the same ol' lies. That you've heard before When angels kicked through the front door Bringing heart attacks in bundled sacks. We've landed here before. Send out the dreaded S.O.S. This ship is sinking way to fucking fast. Cry out mayday on this hot October night. Walk out into the night And I'm frozen down to the bone. And I'm giving up my hope, It's only bringing me down anyways. Smoking my brains raw. I'll drink away the memories. Bringing heart attacks in bundled sacks. We've landed here before. Send out the dreaded S.O.S. This ship is sinking way to fucking fast. Cry out mayday on this hot October night.
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I've trained myself to tune you out. I can't hear a sound. I've lost control. Hose me down and put me back. Lemme know when you've had enough. I've had enough. I found the secret to life Floundering in the bottom of a bottle. I'll cure it all with a bottle of vino. I tried so hard to get it right. Lost myself in the shadow of doubt. Slam my fist into the ground. I've lost control. Hose me down and put me back. Derail me from this track. I've lost control. I found the secret to life Floundering in the bottom of a bottle. I'll cure it all with a bottle of vino. I tried so hard to get it right. Over and over it happens again.
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Stop looking back to days and all those friends that just wont change. You'll be better off without them anyways. Kid don't be afraid to stand up straight and breathe, feels so great and oh so free. Vision becoming clear and real as I take in this clean air. I'm standing on the outside. I'm on the edge. I'm all alone. I'm not afraid to fall this time. So don't even ask if this is the way that you should be moving right now! You've spent so much time in hell, aren't you tired of coming down? Don't you want to get out and see the lights instead of these empty starless night? I just want to break free and for the first time... feel alive! You're all I think about these days. These sleepless nights and endless days
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I've walked away from more and stuck it out for less. Tried to fill the hole that you left rotting in my fucking chest. Slumming around in the darkest of dive bars. I never thought going down in flames would ever feel so great. Everyday I lose just a little more faith and it's only getting better. You'd be better off, so much better off with out me. You'd be better off on your own. I'll be kicking rocks down lonely roads. We built our love on plots of trust. My eyes are dilated and red enough to make some sense. Strike a match and watch it burn. I medicate to pass the time and then again to sleep at night. I heard a voice in the back of my mind, reminding me for the thousandth time, I will only leave you waiting on me
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Seven Down 02:38
Another year of waking up at noon and waiting. Last night it came to me that I'm completely free of college funds and rubber walls, mid-night hour check in calls. We're screaming out for help but no one is listening. I think I knew it all along. We're running on empty. We've got our backs against the wall. We're running on empty. This trip now feels more like a fall. Another night of staying up 'till six and drinking, wishing I was in some one else's town. Drive all night. Sleep all day. What's it like to miss this place? We're screaming out for help but no one is listening. Maybe we grew up way too fast. We're running on empty. We've got our backs against the wall. We're running on empty. This trip now feels more like a fall. Ten down and two to go. We've got so far to climb. We've got nowhere to fall.
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I guess I'm just unhappy with everyone I meet. Every time I hang out with my friends It's like the night will never end at all. And they swear there's nothing wrong, So sure there's nothing wrong. Is there any one at all? So now I'm second guessing, Throwing names into a hat. I'm hoping to find someone with time, Who hates all the same things as me. So we can laugh at all the sheep. We'll laugh at all the sheep. Is there anyone at all?
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Any secret worth keeping is definitely Worth reviling if the time is right. Canaries sing a lonely song Caught in the act of doing wrong. Confide in me. Come dine with me. Livers swollen twice in size, Bleeding through these swelling eyes. It's over. So over. I feel so far way but I'm still stuck here. Grab my vice with both hands. Tonight we take an ambulance Back to 98. Throw my hands up in the air. Another night that we must share Back in 98. Walking down these old dirt roads. Leaking roofs on makeshift homes. So homesick I'm fucking sick of home. Playing fields light up the sky. Jubilant echoes fill the night. So distant. So far away. I feel so far way but I'm still stuck here. Grab my vice with both hands. Tonight we take an ambulance Back to 98. Throw my hands up in the air. Another night that we must share Back in 98. I feel so far from home. I feel so far from home. Grab my vice with both hands. Tonight we take an ambulance Back to 98. Throw my hands up in the air. Another night that we must share Back in 98.
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Diving 03:30
You said I've had enough. I think I've been drunk enough times to decide that. 'Cause I can still stand up, for me that is enough to take myself outside. Maybe lightning will strike me tonight. From the back seat you sit and watch. Time wasted just adds to the cost. You think you'll never find your way back now. Why would you give up? I know your strong enough, it's not too late to start a fire. I just can't stop driving 'till the wheels fall off. That might not be that long now. Now that I'm gone I finally feel I belong, even though I never fit in anywhere. In town I heard you all talk. You laugh a lot and call me lost. Well I'm never coming back. Why would I give up this? The one thing I've loved that's never turned it's back. I've walked this road a hundred times and stood here a hundred and one. Toss and turn all through the night, visions of a better life. I can't get them out of my head. I've walked this road a hundred times and stood here a hundred and one. It's so crazy it might just work. We're so close it fucking hurts. I can't get it out of my head. Maybe lightning could strike me tonight.
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The Fun & The Lonely was released by All For Hope Records March 2012.

1st vinyl pressing released in February 2013 by All For Hope Records, Solidarity Recordings, Say-10 Records and La Escalera Records.

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released March 13, 2012

Recorded @ Nu-Tone Studios in Pittsburg, CA by Willie Samuels
Mastered by Ken Lee of Ken Lee Mastering
Album Lay Out by Doom Toof!

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Civil War Rust Oakland, California

Hi! We are Civil War Rust from Oakland.
Things we enjoy... Pop Punk from the 90's, Burritos, Recording & Dive Bars from the 90's,

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